starting life anew!

i've never felt so positive about life before!

i had this jumpy feeling throughout the day i had to let it out!

but unfortunately, i was rude to mum in the morning.

but i hoped the rest of the day compensated my nasty actions! :)

i let other commuters board the bus first, i exited the jampacked train for other commuters to board, i took the stairs instead of the escalator, i smiled, i did not get angry, i asked the salesperson politely ("ermm sorry to interrupt...?").

basically, i was cheerful throughout the day!!!!

THIS FEELING IS GREAT!

I FEEL REBORNED INTO THIS WORLD!

what triggered so many happy thoughts i do not know,

but i'm positive that recent events have brought about this change in me, for the better i must say.

motivating morning groupings, ndt, the period with alvin, xing, ivy and friends, and more importantly ---.

morning groupings and the ndt made me realise the reason things do not proceed in our way is solely because of ourselves! just like DM (or SDM cant remember) kelvin said:

the 1090 rule. 90% of things that happen around us cannot be controlled, but the fate, or the outcome of these, 10%, depends solely on ourselves, what is our next decision, what is our next move, whether we want to retaliate, hold back, forget about it, etc.

meeting alvin plus ---, these events, they made me realise that all along i have been tooooo dependent on others, be it my parents, friends, or ---. i need to learn to be independent. alvin also taught me to not be too trusting of strangers.

i usually let my guard down, strangers or friends.

being too trusting of people may be good, but it may have negative consequences.

thanks, i think i needed this long ago.

it's time i learnt to fly.