today is a day i will never forget.

today i have finally realised my true reason for joining EY.

morning grouping was neutral, and it did not have such a great impact on me except the ant squashing and the massaging. i'm so depressed. on one hand, i pray that -------, i pray that -------, i pray that -------. the list goes on. as xing says, the list of blameworthy people/stuff goes on and on. it is endless. and i agree.

you must be very disappointed in me. for giving up so easily, for crying like a sissy when faced with a teeny weeny obstacle. all that i've said, 'to learn to persist and don't give up', it's all lip service. maybe, when i rejoin EY a few months later, or maybe a few years later, i would still have the same reason. this is my reason for now. for now, just for now.....

now i have to leave, extremely unwillingly.......

the lady on my right just told me, "miss, everything will be okay". and i started crying. crying buckets. like you can see on this page. because i know that everything is not gonna be okay. i've thought about it. there's no better solution."