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2008-04-24T17:51:00.004+08:00

2008-03-31T11:59:00.003+08:00

-REVAMP IN PROGRESS-

-WILL BE BACK-

2008-03-28T10:38:00.004+08:00

i wish i'd never be affected, even the slightest bit.

2008-03-26T21:40:00.015+08:00

some happy stuff to blog about:)
was spposed to work but susie exchanged hours with me.
kinda miss work!
got my pay slip on monday!!!

ran in the morn, had lunch at point, then went on
SHOPPING SPREE with sissie!!!
damn it feels damn good to spend your hard-earned money!!!!
spent a total of sixty bucks on mostly food!

five packets instant noodles
sunsilk shampoo
palmolive shower gel
colgate total 12
oreo wafer rolls
marshmallows!!!
mcvities original and chocolate! (i miss the sec4 days!)
fruit and nut bread
popcorn
sunflower seeds
chocochip vanilla icecream tub
500g bottle of pure honey for mimmy costing $17!!!!!!

the popcorn was like fricking cool lah, just had ta put the pack in the microwave for five minutes then you'll hear vigorous popping sound and the pack starts to expand and ...
TADA!!!!!!
buttery popcorn oven-fresh, piping hot, ready for consumption!

mimmy and aunt went out shopping (the first time i've heard of!)
and jy wasn't back from school.
so sissie and i indulged in the yummy self-made treat!!
best of all, we poured some hershey's chocolate syrup over the popcorn which was.....
oooooo *drools!*
$2.55 oni, money well spent!

followed up with my personal trainer, sissie, and gosh, i feel so happy that i can do 'babyfreeze' now!!!!!
just learnt it only yesterday and it was a darn s-l-o-w one!!!
happy that i progressed!!!
trying to do it with my right hand as main support now!!!!
bruises!!!! one on my left butt, the other on my left arm from losing balance yesterday!
*ouch* my butt hurts with every step i take!
ooohh my tummy hurts too from the 'paddling exercise' and the horrible half sit-ups!
but that means muscles in the making!!!!
WOOOOTS!!!!!
swept de floor only in the evening!!!
derrick came over, giving sissie a surprise!
we had jap food for dinner excluding mimmy!
yummyumm!!! teriyaki chicken + rice!!!!! four bucks oni!!!

anyway, i've been snacking soooooo very much i really should cut down on all those chocolate and titbits and those sinful treats.
the fridge is just soooooo tempting!!!!
i see dairy milk chocolate with fudge centre + kinder bueno whenever i open the fridge!!!
ARGHHHH.

anyways, something to look forward to tomorrow!!!!!
weeeeee~~!!!!!!!
excited!!!! :D

fooood!!!

it expandedd!!!!!

popcorn with hershey's!!!

parental advisory!
(sissie was measuring derrick's vital stats!!!)

2008-03-26T20:55:00.006+08:00

TMTH, i'd say.
sometimes it's just too much,
too much to handle.
it hurts, and i'll go
"SHIT".
"here it goes again".
and somehow the cycle repeats itself.
i know i've said "i've never had this / felt this way..."
so many times
such that its significance;
if left any, has been lost.

but this time i'm sure.

i'm no longer what i used to be, i don't know why.
but this change;
it's definitely for the better.

2008-03-26T10:42:00.006+08:00

all i can say is that i'm very, very, very disappointed with myself.
after olevels it was like this.
now after a's i want history to repeat itself???
why can't i ever get things right?
why do i keep procrastinating and waiting till the very last minute before i take action?
that was probably the reason why i gave up at the 7th.
even wanted to give up after 2k, which is like, insane???
whatthehell.
i hate myself.

2008-03-24T11:27:00.019+08:00

-revamp on the way-

[will be inactive for approximately 432 minutes]

TO DO LIST:

1. university admission! get it over and done with!
(been procrastinating for quite some time)
2. perc book which needs serious update!
3. practice four-mallet technique!
4. rudiments! practice pad's rusting!
5. lissa explains web--->moriji skin!
6. upload pics from chalet!!
7. haven't touched the piano for loooong. laputa i want to play!
8. get rid of that yucky yellow thing!

TO BUY LIST:

1. $99 black/silver zen stone plus! good deal!
2. twweeeeeeeeeezzz!!
3. baby wipes (looney tunes blue) x 2 !
4. clarins!
5. eye drops/multipurpose solution small!
6. FBT dark blue!!!
7. looney tunes pink/yellow any nice colour but black!!!!

RESOLUTIONS:

1. run at least once a week!
2. sit-ups and crunches and that horrible body supporting thingi, thrice a week!
3. daily mandatory routine: breakfast, read the paper, sweep, fold clothes.
4. achieve 23 rounds ---> complete 10k in one hour!
5. master steven's grip first before you attempt burton's!
6. strive for success and don't give up so easily!!!

EMOTION MANAGEMENT:

1. a quote from the uob machine which inspired me:
'there's always a reason for anger, but rarely a good one'
2. beware!!!! the devil is always around!!!!! calm down and sort out your thoughts and the basis of your anger before you fall into the devil's trap!!!!
3. getting angry means allowing yourself to be affected by that undeserving person! relax!
4. make sense of what he's saying. he doesn't scold you for no reason. don't talk back. you realise after that that what he said actually is right. just that he likes to exaggerate and add in sarcasm which is simply a test of your patience and how easy it takes to upset you! *drillsthisintobrain*
5. even if i type 'dismiss it as a joke', i know it is difficult to do so and it will probably not realise. what can i do? what is the bestest solution to avoid this avoidable problem? ...counter it!!

these will not end up as empty talk (type).

did i tell you what i wanted to say?
in a whisper, i did,
and i meant it.

cause you mean so much to me
i'd do anything just to be with you

2008-03-21T16:00:00.003+08:00

haven't seen you for three days!!!!!!!

...

i'm so happy today because i broke my record!!
LALALA!!!
LALALALALA!!!!!
even though it was just one round, but to me it's considered quite an achievement!
stepping stone to success!!!!
and i didn't stop!!!!
wahahaha!!!!!!
10k here i come!!!!

fly squasher!!! *smacks*
[thinking of using this in store!!!]

a very pretty orange windmill !!!!

2008-03-20T23:59:00.012+08:00

niannian was not bad! :)
$37.20 for 2.5 hours!
and i thought i'd take till 4pm!
ended at 1.30pm instead cause there were so many blocks with no lifts!
easyeasy blocks, poor sissie doing 5xx series!
surprisingly there were no meowmeows today!
or maybe i didn't keep a lookout for them!
was listening to laputa's soundtracks and some jap tracks throughout work which makes work much more pleasing:)
joe hisaishi's a genius!!!!

the only fascinating thing i saw during niannian =X

711-ing was pretty much enjoyable! :D
i realised that i like counting service items and recording them neatly, arranging notes head to tails neatly, bundling up notes so that it's easier to count during closing, wiping counter tops near the drink dispenser, sweeping and mopping the floor!!
gives me a sense of satisfaction!
bill-paying's also very fun!
but today there was something wrong with the thingi so it was abit the ma fan.
have to clearclearclear then reprint!
left at ten thirty plus today again, couldn't stand the sight of litter outside store!

anyway, a serious blunder i made today.
this teen asked for six 30K maple acash. so i keyed in 6 x *scan*.
then i accidentally pressed 'PLU'.!!!!!!
so total was: $382+ !!!
i didn't check if i did key in wrongly or what, and i told him his money wasn't enough.
he only had $200! cause the actual amount was half of that!
of course, i apologized profusely after that.
"sorry sorry, really very sorry..."
anyway, he laughed it off so it was a relief!!

i saw the grossest thing i've ever seen. after work.
it was a carton of 1.5 litre white chrysanthemum tea outside store.
and there were not hundreds, but thousands of eeeeky yuccky little ant-like things crawling all over the carton!
omg imagine that!
yuck yuck yuck.
how did ah fan manage to get that carton out!
i really pei fu her man!
yucks soooooooo disgusting!
then heroine susie came along!
she got it all done within ten minutes; taking out the bottles and flinging the carton into the grass patch, sweeping away the remnants of the disaster caused by the invasion of the unknown species, and wiping away the squashed up bodies on the caps of the bottles.
the content of the bottles weren't affected in the least bit, it was some sweet stuff that the carton got into contact with, that was why the alien species was crawling all over it.
yuuuuuucccccckkkkkk.

was listening to kikujiro's soundtracks on the way home, and geesh, the violin was melting my heart away~~!!!!
joe hisaishi!!! i love you!!!!
mood: happy!

i'm still pretty much a greenhorn, and there's several things i still have to take note of.

1. customer intimacy!
it's like, i only practiced the 'hi, welcome to 711!' and 'thank you for shopping at 711!' for the first week or so? then i got tired of repeating it cause it's too long winded and some customers zao before i complete my sentence.

2. dodo-ishness!
i'm so blurrrr that sometimes i forget to return $ to the customer and i wonder, 'why is the customer still standing there?'

3. paperwork!
gotta speed up on that!
yani can doublecheck the sunrise paperwork standing, while i have to sit down, slowly presspress calculator and check!!!!

4. closing!
arghhh. closing just sucks the fun out of my job! i hate the disappointment when there's short!!! extra isn't that bad, but it isn't good either! how i wish that it'll always be xxx cash: 0.00 on the x reading sheet!!!

sometimes laziness just gets the better of me.
i must improve on customer intimacy!

my 711 stationery pack!!!

from left:
paperweight and moo orange clip
smooth and nice thick purple pen
uber cute furry froggie pen!
super cute ladybuggy pencil with added cap from jboi!
the smoothest ballpoint pen you can every ask for!
and of course, my ladybuggy pencil box!!!

imagine using the furry froggie pen for bill paying!
so cute la!

i'd the 'see anything nice and buy' mood this afternoon after niannian so burnt a hole in my pocket!
saw a very colourful paul frank lanyard in japan home and my fetish for lanyards came back all of a sudden!!!
it's the lanyard craze nowwww!!!!

i have the 'stop snacking, stop slacking, go exercise' mood!!!
i am gonna wake up early tomorrow and run 25 rounds!!!!
(around my room wahaha!!!)
woooots! YAYYYY!!!!

ixiaotouwillxiaotoupushxiaotouxiaotouxiaotouoffxiaotouhisxiaotouhammock!!!

2008-03-19T17:07:00.007+08:00

retarded jy =X

if you realise, she's actually reading while blowing the balloon.

OMG! super big pleaseee!

what it became in the end =X

haha!

2008-03-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

wanted to niannian today but stupid boss broke his promise (again) and didn't pass me flyers!!!
7-11 from five to ten!!!
omg what a shock i had when i arrived for work!

...

i just realised there's connections so i shall keep my mouth shut.
babbled about - to dave who seemed disinterested.
[fyi: 2. uninterested means 'having no interest in, being indifferent to'; disinterested means 'having no personal interest or stake in; being unbiased toward' from dictionary.com]

had dinner at 8plus.
dave had no whatyoucallit? 711 shirt?
he called eugenie who said to take from 263!
dave rode there but dang! no shirt there too!!!
so in the end, dave got promoted to susie's position!
he wore the green top which is like both funny and weird at the same time!
this xiaohunhun came along with his friends to ask if there's any vacancies available.
and he was like being so...... zzzzz.
"wah! here got vibrator arh?!!.........blahblahblah"
purposely talk so loudly somemore.
i was arranging notes in pos1 and unintentionally had the 'diao' face when i looked up to see who was the one.
if eugenie was there confirm don't accept him lorrrr.
surely not responsible and serious in work one lorrrr.
piercings+dyehair. eeeyerrr.
-zzzzzzzz-

today's work was pretty enjoyable.
did they get the aircon fixed?? it was much cooler today!
can't believe dave when he told me i counted cigarettes wrongly!!!!
cannot be!!!!
yes, about the stack of $2 notes, really paiseh, not meant to hai you one!
left for home round ten thirty.
couldn't stand the sight of litter outside store so i had to sweep it up!!!!

on the way home i saw the xiaohunhun and his friends again.
they realised i was the one at the counter and one of them caught up with me and walked up to my side. then another.
i increased the volume of the music playing through my earphones to full blast and walked faster.
thank god they gave up.
wise up fellas!!!

2008-03-18T15:24:00.001+08:00

grocery shopping can be fun too!!

display at prima deli!

cadbury chicks!

spam!!!

this somehow reminds me of 'yobunnyhop'!!

2008-03-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

reached home at 5.30, dilly-dally-ed a bit, bathed, dinnered,
rushed off at 6.30 for practice!
reached mus'art at 8.15!!!
waiting time for bus 334 was more than 15 minutes la!!!
and i had a shock when i saw only four percs, and conductor mr willy tan!
kinda relieved that ds wasn't there...!
turns out that most of them went for the patti ballinas (spell?) drum clinic.
played this reallllllyyyy slowwwwwww and super boring song called adagio which was quite a setback because it revealed all my mistakes!!!
my marimba roll, transition from one note to the next, was faaaaarrrr from smooth.
dang.
i was like omans, gotta work hard on this!!!!! :(
another piece we sight-read which required four mallet technique which i wasn't that comfortable with, YET.
vibraphone, difficult to play sia!
depress, release, blahblahblah so ma fan!!! i have not mastered! YET.
the bestest piece was mission impossible ---> mission possible!
my part was marimba, accompaniment, so it was pretty easy.
and when everyone played together, it sounded hmmm not bad!!
the girl majoring in percussion in laselle is like damn pro!
i wanna be like her!!!

percussionists should be all-rounders. if you can't play mallets at all then you shouldn't even be considered a percussionist. drummerboy, join some other club la! bleahhhh how many times have i repeated this. zzzzzzzzz.

didn't join the rest for macs after prac.
two-hour ride back home!!! ahhhh!!!! shaggggggggg!!!
ecp drained all my energy~~!!!!
xiaotouxiaotouxiaotou~~~~!!!!!!

2008-03-17T18:00:00.006+08:00

rrrrriiiiiingggg!!!!!!!!

xiaotou got 'scared'-up by my morning call at nine!!!!
first time meeting xiaotou in the morning! XD
off to ecp at ten thirty!!! yay!!!
xiaotou always locks the door and don't lemme in!
there was only sausage mcmuffin left when we reached macs at ecp!

rented bikes at the kiosk which were real cheap, like $6 for 2 hours!
plus free polar mineral water! so good sia!
and wth xiaotou was riding freehand like damn easy laa!
i fell once in the sand cause i couldn't manoeuvre the bike! bleahh.
took some unglam shots of xiaotou but due to xiaotou's persistent pleading, very kind me decided not to upload them! wahaha!!! (bbinexchangewahaha!!!)
freehand was soooo fun!!!!!
and the stunt that made xiaotou look as if he was legless!!!
wahahaaa!!!!

so pro la! (the phototaker!)

weii !

stop taking pic !!!!

stupid xiaotou!

sandcastle!

bedok jetty! XD

reenacting xmas party!!! weeee~~!!!

'confession of love!' haha!

*pushxiaotoudown!*

omg what's that green streak in the sea??!!!

*bites!*

didn't have enough time to cycle to the very end cause xiaotou kept stopping!
haaa!!
anyway, xiaotou kept looking at all those mei mei with super tanned and nice legs and i was drooling at all the hot guys at the beach!!! wooots!!!
water battle ahhhh!!!!!! i won wahaha!!!!
luckily i brought shirt to change haaa!!!
benben xiaotou didn't bring and was a little wet...!!!
went to beach road to meet huiliong and guoming(??) for lunch.
famished!!!!
xiaotou tell me to take bus to beach road!!!!! *@*&!)&%^ !!!!!!

XIAODATOU!!

WEEEE!~~!!!

????

didn't know a place called army market existed! so cool la!
chaoshaofan + sugarcanejuice was yumyum!!!!
stupid incident the auntie thought i gave her $1 !!! bleahh!!

xiaodatou coffin!!!!

i love xiaotou's bayy-ggg!!!!

omg seven hours together!!!! weee~~!!!!
happyhappyhappy!!!!!

2008-03-16T23:59:00.001+08:00

reached workplace 6.30 and kind of regretted going early cause work was kinda sian.
first time working at 263!!! my partner was benjamin.
mainly pos2 was used so i was basically rotting.
it was a little cooler than at 193 cause there was a portable fan to replace the faulty overhead fan.
but otherwise,
193 wins hands-down!

1. the whole counter area is so small and squeezy, there's barely room to walk!
2. counter-top space is so small!!!!
3. plastic bags so messy on counter-top!
3. knee-high stack of plastic bags at pos1 which makes pos1 so inaccessible!
5. have to move away plastic bag stack to count cigarettes in cupboard!
6. customers entering and exiting from guardian and from outside, hear 'dingdong' dunno how many times!
7. can barely hear pos2 touch-screen sound!!!
8. pos2 receipt printer ink sucks!
9. office so far away from counter!
10. door like gonna come off!

omg i can easily list ten things i dont like about 263!
but of course there're pros too, like it's much slacker than 193 cause there's lesser customers, entire store-view at a glance, and of course, cleaner toilets!
i kind of took my time counting cause i didn't want to make any mistakes!
most memorable(negative) was this customer who came up to exchange $40 worth of coins!
5c, 10c and 20c !!!! ahhhh!!!!
i was counting like mad and actually a little afraid that he'll get impatient.
but hey, we're not some sole provider of coin-exchange service so we have no obligation to acceot your request!!!
luckily there weren't much customers and the customer he was nice to thank benjamin and i !!
a very stupid mistake i made when it was time to close;
benjamin said to close pos1 first, i asked can meh, and didn't think much about it, until after i closed then realised OH SHIT.
called eugenie who said nvm which was really a relief.
damn sian anyway cause pos1 short $100 !!!!
benjamin was closing pos2 when sunrise came, poor him cause it was full of coins, count like mad!!!!!

anyway zhiqiang(?) came and... xia ban lo!!!!
193 !!!! i miss 193 !!!!

2008-03-16T23:55:00.002+08:00

saw a very cute mao mi during toilet break during work!!!!!!!
wanted to snap a few shots but mao mi kept moving!
so all i got was:

this,

this,

this, and

this!!!

this was the closest i got to a decent pic.
mao mi so cuuuute!!!!!!

2008-03-16T17:12:00.000+08:00

i want to watch chobits!

2008-03-16T16:31:00.007+08:00

pardon me for the spastic face...
....i found a snail !!!!

bye mister snail !!

*sobsob*
"may you find a better home!"

*poof* mister snail sank three seconds later:(

sissie got this for me.......
symbol of sissie's undying love for me!

picking rocks to throw into the reservoir!

new mascot for bedok reservoir.

teppan chicken with omelette was....

...indescribable!

caitou!!!!! i see caitou!!!!

bag so cute got caitou!!!!!

courtesy of ck.

traumatised meow meow.

2008-03-15T16:00:00.002+08:00

woke up close to nine.
supposed to meet ck at 1030 but both of us reached dover round 11.
shuttle bus to nus, was yawning throughout.
[kns eugene, sms him also never reply, think what, we are robots are, never give us paper how to work, never give us money how we survive. tell us do this do that but simple request from him also cannot. sibei dulan!]
sat through three talks; fass, science, engineering.
office of admissions was boring and wasn't what ck expected so we left ten minutes after it started.
tio scammed by sm who said he was there but actually still at dover.
saw quite a few ij mates and srjcians.
TIREDDDDDDD.
glad that i didn't go vivo cause i'd have dropped dead at ks if i did.
had deadly malamian in tbplaza.
eating was a deadly process which took 30 minutes.
penned down some thoughts, fell asleep in the kopitiam, woke up one hour later to find drool on the nus bag, left for ks, reached there at six, opened music room, practiced steven's grip, practiced exercises 1 - 4, and i was glad i was improving:)

...

so happy to see xiaotou! (as usual!)
arghhh i sound so guy now.
i want my voice back!

ck HAHAHA

ahaa, couldn't resist the temptation =X

COLOURFULcandy

2008-03-14T18:23:00.005+08:00

Which mega cool percussion instrument are you?

You scored as Snare!

Snare! Though not easy to get along with, you feel the need to always make things perfect. You're dedicated and willing to put in the hard work.

Snare!

100%

Cymbals!

88%

Bass Drum!

75%

Front Ensemble/Pit!

63%

Tenors!

50%

2008-03-14T17:33:00.006+08:00

DAMN SHAG!!!!
slept at 2 so naturally couldn't wake up early.
got up at 8+ eventually and left for work with sissie round nine.
finished up 5xx, 6xx, 7xx and bit of 8xx!!!!!!
SO SHAGGGG!!!!!
SHAG LIKE SHIT!
$66.30 for 6 hours!!!!
i want to eat ma la mian!!!

pretty flower outside me house.

spot three meow meows!!!

the one you couldn't find!

a beautiful one, but it ran away when i got close:(

looks fierce but it was actually purring away...
*meowww*

wah! cool sia!

poor birdie.

there were maggots on it.

sia la, 'door open' button missing!

we had peanuts!!! niceniceyumyum!

2008-03-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

today was a damn sian day!
so damn sian!
raining elephants, then slackened, then rained again!
arghhh.
so friggin cold!!!!!
read abit of 'complete percussionist', like FINALLY!
someone, congratulate me!

i finally touched that book!

in the end, i slept on the 3rd/4th page and left a fifty cent patch of saliva, 1cm thick =X

anyway, on the phone with xiaotou was so damn fun cause i was posting xiaotou's pics and threatening xiaotou with.......!!!! wahaha!!!
but xiaotou threatened me with the stupid 3-month thingi for that 2 ugly pictures!!!

bleahhhh.

had ma la mian for lunch today and it was .......
yum-yum-yummy-delicious!!!!!!
this was only the second time i've eaten it in my entire life!
the first time i had it, mucus kept flowing from my nostrils and i teared with every spoonful of noodles!!!
yumyum its from the same stall and i can't believe i actually drank the soup after finishing up every bit of the chicken and mushrooms!
soooooooo nice!!!!!
i want to eat ma la mian again!!!!

[marchtwelve2008]

longlegged tortoise!

reminds me of some god from spirited away...!

LJS!

chiobu looking at you!

thanks for the unglam shot xiaotou!

ma la mian rocks!!!!

yumyumyum!!!!

!!!!!!!!
be prepared for the last pic!!!!!!!!
the girl in the photo is like damn chio please!!!!!!!
so hot so chio!!!!!!

that's me when i was seconday one!!!!
WAHAHAHA!!!
told you le, so chio right!!!!

2008-03-13T22:09:00.004+08:00

MEOW MEOW SOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-13T10:18:00.004+08:00

my throat has been feeling like crap since tuesday.
damn! shouldn't have had myself (LJS) yesterday!

...

most ij peeps have done pretty well. what about me?
i shan't say. not a B in sight. friggin sad for chemistry.
and it's like, people who haven't talked to me in ages suddenly pop the question in msn, 'how's your results?' which is like yuck, so ............... yuck.
even the top student says his results are 'okay only'.
wah jialat la his results okay only then mine how sia?
i'm so frigging glad that i changed my number cause i've been receiving much lesser nuisance messages from fished-up people who don't know their limits.
hmm, it's 'person' actually, not people.
in case you didn't know, i officially changed my number on
16th december 2007.
so please don't text to the old number cause i wouldn't reply you, or even if you texted to my current number, i may not want to reply you.

...

even boss daniel asked about my results.
but at least he's much better than that kns eugene.
ABSOLUTELY NO CREDIBILITY at all.
dear evil eugene, if i were to work for you for the rest of dunno how long, i think i would starve to death in a month's time.

...

i'm so disgusted and looking back i'm so very very glad i made the right decision.
too many things that went overboard.
a whatthefuck scenario that commanded a whatthefuck reply.
that's it.
thanks for all the support sissie,
i'll never look back.

2008-03-13T00:53:00.013+08:00

[26th December 2007]

how it all started.............

[8:45]

[8:46]

[8:47]

[9:17]

[9:19]

[9:22]

[10:41]

[10:42]

ilooksofrigginuglydatouhere but that's not the point =D

*xiaotou's.stuupid.left.hand.started.it.lorrr*

weeeeee~~~~~~~!!!!!

2008-03-11T14:54:00.010+08:00

omgi'msohappy!!!!
crazyboutyou!!!

mini broom so cute!

mini xylo mallets!!!

woodblock and mallet!

ehh?whats this?

datou so cute!

who's hiding?

2008-03-08T01:58:00.006+08:00

'cuz no words can describe how i feel towards you
boy i just wanna hold you tight
don't wanna let go

2008-03-07T11:45:00.000+08:00

THE MEE FAMILY!!!

clockwise from clergy(!):
meegoreng - andy
meepok- grayson
meesiam - ME!
meesoto - cheehao

MEEPOK!
happy NonSense-ing!!!! :)
see you in two weeks time!

2008-03-06T16:06:00.003+08:00

just came back from work!
it was okay as compared to last week, hectic like shit!
every morning it's the same routine:
DSSR, receiving, sweep, mop, countcountcount, close.
today i learnt new things from nico, blockstack thingi and some receiving stuff!
and had lunch only at two, was damn hungry!!!
bbq chicken sandwich that kasmah saved for me:)
so happy today cause there's star for cigarettes!
sucks man when there's cigarette-short or counter short!
especially when i'm the one closing!!

oh anyway, what a pleasant surprise i had when i saw sir!!!!
he was buying the paper and i didn't quite believe it was him from behind.
and when he turned back, the shock on our faces turned to smiles!
"oh! you're working here! how are you?"
and before he left, he said something about peeling, or bleeding.
i was like, what? and i went to the toilet to check.
geeeesh. there was red stuff on my gums. =X
goddammit of all times, do my gums have to bleed now?
i'll be scaring customers away...!!!
*ahhhhh dracula cashier!!!!*

anyway, bladder was gonna burst cause didn't pee for six hours.
711 toilet sucks la? don't like squatting down one.
and some people (not the staff) like suppliers or schoolboys they use the toilet and seems like they don't aim properly! =X
smelly smelly smelly.
aha so crude.
and jack was late!
so me and kasmah left late!
susie was herself as usual.
kasmah should know what i mean:P

i so want to meet you!

2008-03-06T08:30:00.001+08:00

omg.
can't believe that i actually dreamt this kindof stupid dream!
omg. getting jealous in my dreams?
the one in green, stop dancing and posing!
and you, stop taking sequence shots!!!!
LOL so lame la!
off to work!!! :)

xiaotouxiaotouimissyou.

2008-03-05T23:13:00.010+08:00

results are gonna be out this friday.
somehow i don't feel a thing, cause it's either you make it, or you don't.
heh. this reminds me of an irritating person on msn who demoralizes me (used to) whenever i signed in to msn.
'if your results very lousy, if you get DDD, then go jc for what? might as well go poly, or blahblahblah...ya you so stupid...ya i'm right blahblahblah...'
*block contact!*

anyway, mus'art practices are so..............
arghh. stressful.
those pro guys they have their own stick bag full of mallets and they make steven's grip look so easy! dammit!
and my sightreading...it's horrendous, dunno what to say...
can't even get simple stuff correct, rhythm so unsteady, roll so stiff, can't even play the chimes, can't even do french grip, can't even get simple burton grip correct, got put down by him (!!!), can't even play the crash omg!
am i even a percussionist???

haizzzzzz.
the last thing on my mind is to spend my hard-earned money on food.
i don't eat proper and regular meals during climbingmountain-ing.
changing my bad habits but it takes time cause i've always had the perception that food expenditure = burning $$$. especially if its hard-earned, especially if the food isn't up to standard and is like damn ex!
go be an icewoman la.
really not looking forward to it!!!!!!

there are like tiny little ailments in every part of me.
eyes. my eyesight its worsening, my right eye it's no longer perfect and i can't read scores without straining, badly. i need to wear my glasses and i'll look super horrible and ugly and aunty in them.
nose. the skin on my nose is soooooo sensitive i can't use any facial wash cause it'll peel and i'll look super disfigured. gentle, mild baby wipes + hazeline moisturizer are the only solution.
mouth. my gums bleed every now and then i brush my teeth. and it's like, my whole mouth will be filled with red toothpaste, imagine that?
lips. another irritating thing. i get dry and chapped lips that look like frankenstein's whenever i'm in a cold environment for too long. definition of long = 1 hour. so i always have to apply and reapply lip moisturizer. and the problem is, because of my forgetfulness, i keep losing them! not say it's very cheap lorrr. dammit!
face. dunno how many freaking pimples. incurable.
hair. split ends, protein-less strands, spoilt, clump-like hay.
ear. i am hard of hearing. i need to get ear plugs. i need to do an audiometry test. sometimes i just can't make out what people are saying and to avoid embarassment, i just nod and smile which is like urgghh, so fake.
ankles. creak/crack(?) with every step up the stairs.
left leg. excruciatingly pain sudden muscle cramps in the middle of the night that leave me wailing like a baby.

work has probably changed me for the better.
but perfectionism is still in the way.
well at least i'm not that paranoid about handling money now, and i don't care that much anymore about hygiene.
that's a good sign, considering that i used to wash my hands after touching every foreign object, every coin or dollar note.
don't wanna be such a perfectionist!
don't wanna straighten bloody leaflets even when i'm in a rush!

it's 11.51pm and i was supposed to study but i ended up complaining about this and that.
hah. i think i feel better after letting out my thoughts.
probably going ntu, nus and smu open house with kerwoy.
arghhh. university admission.
why must we study?
(such an immature question)

work tomorrow!
i wanna reach store at 8.15!!!!!!!
i have to get up at 7.30!!!!!!!!

hmm hmm tomorrow tomorrow???

2008-03-05T22:55:00.006+08:00

did only 29 blocks today but was damn freaking tired!!!!
some random pics!

boss was on the phone for ten minutes so i got bored =X

movie anyone?

bloody gigantic shit stank three entire storeys!!!

2008-03-05T12:09:00.003+08:00

i have the sudden urge to shout out loud.......
banana is soooooooo cute!!!!!!!!

2008-03-05T01:55:00.013+08:00

leapyear:)

before!

after!
look! mine's so clean! unlike xiaotou's!

fish and chips!!!!!

before!!!
(pepsi with salt!)

after!!! xiaotou wastes food!!!!

original!

contrast!

effect!

datou datou!

xia yu bu chou!

ren jia you shan...

wo you da tou!!!!

xiaotou and datou!

weeeeee~~~!!!!
i'm sitting on the steering wheel!!!

:D

crazyboutyou !!

2008-03-05T01:43:00.009+08:00

my super cute ladybuggy slippers!!! $4.90 only!!!

stapler from jboi! and two hairclips!!!

fitting room entrance!

omg the fitting room so nice la!
everybody guys and girls! go bra-shopping at young hearts!!!

ball of fur!

*yawns*

"what's that?"

"hmmm?"

nono!!! don't be tempted! smoking is bad for health!

octupus??!?

baby yik orh sooooo cute!!!

meepok and elise!!!!
SCANDAL!!!!! wahahaha!

2008-03-05T01:25:00.003+08:00

haven't been blogging for sooooooooo long.

so many things i want to blog about!
but by the time i reach home and bathe,
it's 1+ and i'm dead beat!

bout the climbing mountain job.
worked the minimum three days this week!
meow meows always distract me from work!!!
jobbing makes me so damn thirsty cause the water from my bottle goes to washing my hands instead!!!

thursday - 35 blocks.
worked at night till 11.30pm, legs damn tired!
and some staircases weren't lit! creepy like shit!
doors to stairs just suck! big time!!!
ohmy i'm afraid of the dark!!!!
very very very afraid~~~!!!

friday - 11 blocks.
legs too tired from yesterday. worked in the afternoon.
played with meow! saw a weird creature.
difficult, tiring blocks. lift far from staircase! arghhh!!!

sunday - 36 blocks.
2.5hours at work and felt only a little tired.
blocks were easy like crap but that means sheer torture after that!
$46.20 earned! yay!

PICTURES!!! :)

wabbit!!!
i thought this was real cute la!!!

so nice! so colourful!!!

vandalism heh!

nice drawing!

omans...this was a killer! 13x4=52!!!

so cottagey!!

view from the top!

another nice one!

hdb?

at first you don't notice anything...
...then you hear splashing...

AHHHH! whatthehell is that!
the fricking four-legged thingi gave me a fright!

looks like a cross between a turtle and crocodile...
okay the next one's freaky....

this creature has a pig-like snout that squirts murky water!!!
ewwww!!!!!

*growls*

i kinda feel sorry for it...
it kept trying to escape:(
sorry turtlecroc, can't help you!
your master is evil because he/she leaves you outside and allows only a confined space for you to swim, and the water, it's like brown? black? brown-black? bad bad irresponsible owner!!! oh anyway i wondered if it was even legal to keep this as a pet.... looked like some endangered species....
poor thing:(

see what horrible pet owners there are?? this owner leaves his/her cat outside the house! lying beside a smelly shoe somemore!!! meow meow looks sad:(

trying to gain its trust...

meow meow got up...
figured she didn't quite like the smell of stinking school shoes...

ohmy such a beauty...!!

which unit do you live in???
no unfortunately, there isn't your mail...

getting closer......

*purrs*

*pat pat*

*stretches*rubs*yawns*

meow meow looked into the cam!

*wary of stranger*

*still doubtful*

meow!!!!

"my, this rotten leg sure stinks!"

ahaha! meow meow so cute!!!!!

gosh this is a rare one!
never seen a cat sleeping so soundly before!

getting closer......

.....and closer.....

....closer....!!

omg look at its paws!!! meow meow so adorable!!

shhhh!!!

ahhhhh meow meow so cute!!!!
*bah!*
(copyright xiaotou!)

2008-02-27T22:43:00.012+08:00

80 words

wahahaha. my personal best! can't go any higher!!

today was a looooooooooooooong and tiring day.
even though yesterday i was indescribably :)))
aha.
reached store at 830 to make up for yesterday (i came at 930!)
and didn't exactly have the mood to work.

work starts at nine every working day this entire week and its killing me!
it's paperwork, then receiving, then lunch then count count count.
i want to work either swing or 7-11!
kasmah's a fun partner to have definitely!
she slaps my butt, calls me 'ah-mooi', ga-ta (dunno whats that), and after work today she just molested me! hahaha.
(but well thats because i slapped her butt and molested her)
=X wakakaka.

ohyesyes. did you know that the cost of a 5kg bag of ice directly from the supplier= $1.60??
and wth 711 is selling it at $4.80!!! which is like 3 times the cost!!!!
but actually if you go ntuc or cheers or wherever, it may be more expensive, like $2.50 for 2.5kg or something like that.
conclusion: ambition to be an iceman/woman! you can earn lots and lots of money!!!!!

nine again tomorrow! and for god's sake, i really don't want to spend my hard earned money on food!! and it's gonna be a fishie restaurant! not looking forward to it cause of $$$ but at the same time hoping to bond with the rest! arghhhh. i'd better start at four and end before ten tomorrow. just the thought of jobbing at night.....gives me the heebie jeebies....!!!

fricking troubled bout my schedule on friday!!! if everything goes as planned, if if IF i wake up on time, then everything's gonna be okay. but i don't know if i'd be dead tired tomorrow and i won't be able to wake up at five.
dang!
lets say results are gonna be released at 1, or 2. i have about 6 or 7 hours to work and MUST earn enough to cover my expenses for the next week or so. after getting back hopefully un-disgraceful results, i don't know if i'd have the mood to go to ks. what am i crapping, i've got to!!!! the bangala piece and all that whatever alto sax piece and blahblah i could spend a few hours just to get one teeny part right! ohhhnooo then there's steven's grip and burton's grip which sadly, i've yet to master:( looking forward to practice on monday because that means serious playing with serious and experienced players....and learning from my idol!!

i really need to have this concept of time!!!!
i can't afford to be late for everything and anything!!!!!!

from uncle dave!

mahmahkasmah!

boy i'm crazy about you.

2008-02-26T23:50:00.007+08:00

i first met you during the walk
18thdecember it was, around nine o'clock
your name? your school? you asked me
jx i said, srjc.

23rddecember@nafa; trumpeters there were quite a few
the one in the carrotish-hat was that you?
i snapped a shot i keep it still
otherwise so unforgettable, wouldn't go away that thrill

at the party two months back
the moment i saw you i gave you a whack
comical, amiable, yes and amusing
you made an impression it was...*smiles*...breathtaking!

following that the practices i went
hoping to see you that was my second intent
your humour your smile your uber cute frown
it's wayyyyy too difficult not to simmer down

i hit your elbow i poke your waist
the ecstacy and euphoria you made me taste
i ask myself, is this infatuation?
it must be, or where came the elation?

picturesque 'lighthouse', cooling see breeze
love is in the air! this chance could i seize?
i popped the question who was that she?
you spoke of her, them, never near me

complimentary face sauna, i sat there waiting for you
like a fool - i assumed you knew
an hour with irritants(i thought) t'was was too much to bear
i left ... why didn't you care?

ten minutes more - back to a jailbird
could you let me stay a little while longer?
you asked what's the difference? not another word
holycrap, that was a stinger

smile:D i feel the warmth of your hand on my shoulder
my heart skips a beat my cheeks getting redder
before long, i see the same, and next, it's the same
heaving, green-ing, indifferent's not my name

2008-02-26T23:45:00.008+08:00

an overdue post.

i was childish, i was immature. i did things of my own accord. i couldn't care less what they would think. it didn't bother me if it would worry them. i just wanted to be away, i wanted to be with my friends, i didn't want to go home to face them, i didn't want to go home (already dead tired) and get nagged and scolded. he said if i was ever late again, if i ever reached home after midnight, i no longer need to go home, he wouldn't want an unfilial daughter like me. he said home is like a hotel or motel to me, just a place for me to sleep, i can come and go as and when i like. he said i show no concern about them, i come home late to avoid them. actually he was wrong, because back then i thought 'i come home late to avoid you only, not mum.' mum called me cantrememberhowmanytimes and i didn't want to pick up the phone. i walked to the park. techno leapt onto my lap and purred and rubbed its head against my knee. he called and obviously i didnt want to pick up the phone. i slept in a horrible position, i supposedly drooled, i got woken up they wanted to have breakfast, he walked me home. what was i thinking? i was angry with myself for telling the truth, and more importantly i was thinking if you had doubts as to whether or not you should tell me what you wanted to say, then i'd rather you not tell me anything because the impact of your words could only be short-term happiness, or, prolonged emo-mood. an unrealistic hope for an encouraging message.

to the people who cared, who were bugged for my home number, who were worried (sounds like many but not actually) : thank you for your concern and for letting me know that my existence is appreciated. sorry for being bugged. sorry for worrying. sorry for the trouble and inconvenience i caused.

i went back at 8am. i had a two-hour lecture on karma and moral values. i was brimming with anger, i was clenching my fists, the second finger on my right hand, it was erect throughout.

this is going to sound silly. many of the silly stuff i've attempted.
'ending my life with a ball of string'
'i want to kick your balls and laugh as you scream in agony'
and i actually left it on my table before dropping dead on my bed.

it didn't cross my mind that you'll be quite worried. perhaps i thought, maybe a little?? and not to a great extent. well the only person i thought of calling is you. the only number i remember, its yours.
meeting you. i missed seeing you, talking to you, poking you, whacking you.
calming down and sorting out my thoughts, that didn't happen till i started reflecting about what you said, and i realised what you said made much sense, and i started to accept...the lecture, their scoldings, their naggings, cause i know that deep down they do care for me, just that perhaps....they show their concern in a different way.
thank you caitou:)

changing for the better(:

2008-02-22T23:59:00.010+08:00

im so proud of myself cause i've completed 6xx & 7xx!!!!!
yeah!!!
3hours at work and i earned $32.40!
but felt like i'd worked for the entire day =X
weeeeeeee~~~~~!!!
but one bad thing about working at night is that its real creepy... the surrounding its dark, save for a few lamp posts, and there's nobody around, and i pray hard that when i exit the lift i either see a human, or i don't see one; i don't wanna see something breathing and alive but not in human form..........

this guy (human) scared the shit out of me today.
i was walking, looking at the small rectangular piece of cardboard where i note down the blocks and i didn't look up to see whats infront when he suddenly popped out of nowhere beside me!
plus it was dark and i was listening to blasting music and when he popped out, i felt my eyeballs were gonna pop out and i sucked in ten thousand tonnes of air in a millisecond.
turns out he was squatting, fixing his bike and he just happened to stand up when i walked past!!!
bleah =X
scary scary!!!!

bleah.

anyway this job's great cause...
1. the pay's not bad, and
2. you get to shed that extra poundage.

but there's probably more cons than pros, cause...
1. the bosses are fished-up people
2. the pay comes late cause the bosses are fished-up people.

bleah.

anyway, there's ks tomorrow!
that means ...
**************** X)

i rule above all!!! muahahaha!!!!

(actually i was bored so i took out my tag and... =P)

((dave is the extra one cause his name doesn't start with J !!))

interesting!!! ronald macdonald??

2008-02-22T11:34:00.003+08:00

i was reading dldp's blog yesterday and i couldn't help but nod indignantly as the words fell into place. what he said rang a godzilion bells, and echoed deep down, what i'd long to clamour vehemently in vociferation! especially at those imbecilic, narcissistic (their sound, not appearance), discourteous, ungracious, boorish, 'musicians', barbaric beasts in disguise!!! ARGHHH.

other than cawnie who agrees to a very much milder degree, i have not met anyone who feels the same. perhaps people are not sensitive, perhaps i am being too sensitive. blahblahblah whatever!

aha.

anyway, that aside, i have always thought people who type 'WEEEEEEEEE' in sms or say or blah are like so damn act cute, but now i'm like doing the same! bleahhh. cause i'm so happy everytime i see your message!!!

WEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

hello!!!!
aahhaaa today was another =X day!!!
supposed to wake up at 5 and go for (ARGHH) fyd@ny!!!
then <624,<700!!!
in the end i did get up at five but when back to sleep!
ahaa this job sucks but yea im quitting soon!

WEEEEE~~~~~~
worked swing today!
i was late!!!
the first day i came 15 mins early, then following that i came 10, 5, on the dot, then me started to be late!!!!!
aha today i was 7 minutes late!!!
oh no...hope eugenie won't have bad impression of me!!!!

i feel so accomplished today, though very very tired!
i counted the service items and i closed the two counters!
yeahh i was slow and luckily dave helped me when i got stuck!
so there were more angry customers!!
anyway, working with dave today was fun!
he doesn't look like the sort who will joke and crap and blah but in fact he's the total opposite!
there was this auntie who called dave 'uncle'!!!
thats not too bad la, even though he's only 23!!!!
whats annoying is that those monfort primary boys keep calling me auntie!!!
"eh, auntie, got this anot? got that anot?"
and i'll go, 'oi!! dun call me auntie hor!"
and some of them they'll reply, "yes auntie!"
LOL...so cute la the kids!

please gimme morning call tmr!!!!
gotta wake up at 5!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhh this job SUCKS!

2008-02-20T21:03:00.026+08:00

so many things i need to do!
i better list them down!!!

~~1. remove yucky faded orange toenail polish and reapply to both fingernails and toenails!~~
2. polish piano!
3. polish drumsticks!
4. call packer com!
5. email photo to wendy!
6. recap vicfirth snare lesson 1!
7. study vicfirth lesson 2!
8. learn to iron!
9. remember to give jack angpow!
10. return $3.80 to jboi!
11. cap for glue!
12. contact sgh/cgh ent department!
13. check diskettes!
14. practice double stroke!

go to:
1. yamaha clearance sale!
2. np to get bible from fifi!
3. ent appointment at sgh/cgh?

buy:
1. digital metronome!
2. earplugs?
3. three quarters, leather(plastic?) shoes from ipzone!
4. 4-inch killer heels!!!
5. plain flats! preferably white!
6. hat/cap!
7. mp3!
8. voice recorder!!!
9. goggles!!!
10. kodomo baby wipes!

2008-02-20T15:17:00.019+08:00

hearing about you...
lights up my eyes.
seeing your name when an sms arrives...
makes me smile:)
when my mobile rings and its you...
makes me smilesmilesmile:)))
being with you...
makes me happy!!!!XD
talking to you...
makes me laughlaughlaugh!!!! XDDD
seeing you with someone else...
makes me jealous:(
hearing you talking about her...
makes me jealousx100000!:(((

caitou!
just seeing you once in a while...
it's enough to bring a smile to my face:)

am i still living in my dreams???
someone! slap me!
*piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack piack!!!*

weeeeeeee yayyyyy i'm not dreaming!!!!~~~~
*smiles!*laughs!*

the month long mental torture is over!
and and.......!!!
=)

profile.
name: xiao cai tou!
dob: 14th february 2008! (vday!)
description: cute, orange, uber big head with vege on top!
likes: ME!
wahahaX)

mozarella cheese!

icedmilodino!!!

weeee! loves!

fake caitou!

waha but very cute!

aha so cute:)))

2008-02-20T14:58:00.003+08:00

had bbq chicken burger from 711 for lunch
(this was a few days back).
microwaved it at home and it turned out like this!

meow! looks dead!

so cute la!

UU = ??

2008-02-20T01:18:00.001+08:00

am i dreaming am i dreaming?

2008-02-17T01:01:00.005+08:00

i realise, that after all, i am nothing to you, i cannot even be compared to a faint memory, to a digitally enhanced sepia pt.

2008-02-16T16:40:00.006+08:00

I CANT TAKE IT.
I WAS VERY HAPPY.
I WAS GONNA BLOG ABOUT LOTS OF HAPPY STUFF.
AND ONE PHONE CALL RUINED IT ALL.
STUPID PPL HAVE TO TELL ME STUPID THINGS AND RUIN MY DAY.
JUST ONE PHONE CALL IS ENOUGH.
maybe im being too insensitive.
yes i am too insensitive.
why you have to tell me this, why another you have to tell me that?
and to you, what are you thinking?
can you please tell me what you are thinking??????
i hate this feeling, please please please please please don't give me false hope every now and then before dashing all my hopes and reducing me to tears.
please i beg of you.
two months is very short i know but it is enough.
plain viewing your profile is enough.
he told me so calmly i tried to be calm i said stop but he continued i hung up.
today is a special day, was supposed to be a special day.
please tell me what you are thinking.
i can't take it anymore.
don't make me happyhappyhappyhappyhappy then sad like bloodyshit for god knows till when.
and when you reappear, just seeing you, its enough.
what can i do?
will plastic surgery help???
will shutting up help?
will laughing lesser help??????
will losing weight help????
i know i'm fat, i hate it when people tell me i'm fat, to another fucker, you don't have to tell me i'm fat, i know i'm fat, bloodyfucker don't know how to treat a girl right, don't you bloody know that girls hate talking about their weight cause they're so weight conscious. i will go back to boss and hear his honeyed words i don't care if they're fake.

and to the fucking bitch who thinks she's ohsopro can you just fuck off and dont think that you're that great you act as if you are but you're actually just a crapload of virgin shit hope you get fucked updownleftright i hate you you suck to the max your new hairdo sucks if you've got nothing great don't act as if you're so pro im like yadayada now i just realised why im so stupid to actually listened to what you said fucker.

to the unfortunate reader, sorry if you're kinda slow to realise it. i have a split personality. i was sad and that sadness turned to anger after i mentioned that fuckingbitch and i wanna tell everyone to fuck off.
melvin tan you siang lets meet up for eight percent whiskey cola someday.
drink like a fish and drop dead and forget everything about everything.
hundred percent alcohol, i want i want i want.

to people who care: stop lying and pretend as if you give a damn. fuck off you assholes.

2008-02-14T10:40:00.005+08:00

got up at five fifteen,
left home at five fifty,
took 156,
alighted twenty stops late,
couldn't find the opposite bus stop.
walked,
walked to the wrong bus stop,
walked walked, walked and walked,
decided to drop by far east flora along thomson,
walked, walked and walked,
it appeared opened but it was not,
dead,
tired,
sleepy,
failed myself,
failed boss,
failed the traffic,
failed pedestrians,
dunno what i'm talking,
waited half and hour for return trip,
bus stank of rotten shoes,
fell asleep in stinky bus,
dragged myself out of seat.

what a great start to vday.
i'm tired, i was supposed to go and sleep but blogspot and windows movie maker ruined my plan.
i have work at three.
i'm gonna stone for seven hours later.

SHIT!!!!
i am so bloody stressed cause i hate this stupid job even though i've yet to start work.
i must be crazy to handle three jobs in a day.
siao siao siao siao!!!!!!
i want to quit!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate this stupid job!!!!!!!!!!
and i haven't write schedule yet!!!!!!
SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-14T08:39:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VDAY!
this year's vday is especially special for me!!
heeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
weeeeeee happyhappyhappy!!!

PLEASE COME AND VISIT ME AT MY WORKPLACE CAUSE MY JOB IS SOOOOOOOOOO BORING!

weeee so cute!

orange roses are the best!

12 stalks for 80 bucks?!?!

!nice!

my personal favourite!

orange!!! nice!!!

i arranged the not-for-sale bears!

2008-02-14T08:09:00.001+08:00

ME, MYSELF AND I!

million thanks to CHUA WEE KIAT KEROY!

SUPERMAN KERWWOYYY.

JBOI!

THANK ME FOR THIS POK!

I LIKE I LIKE!!! MEE FAMILY HAS TALENT!!!!

MEOW MEOW DON'T BITE ME.

2008-02-13T08:14:00.000+08:00

lack of sleep is sucking life out of me.
i was supposed to get up at 5.
in the end, i didn't go for the job.
for two days.
i have to go tomorrow no matter what.
it's so tiring no wonder the pay's so high.
i'd rather work the climbing mountain job than this plus flower selling.
anyway, i have something to look forward to today.
it's 8.16am!
7-11 at nine!

2008-02-11T23:59:00.001+08:00

i am a happyhappyhappy girl :)

2008-02-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

had lunch at parkroyal at twelve thirty today.
there were six of us, dad, mimmy, me, uncle, godma and godpa.
sissie and jy didn't go so i was practically stoning throughout.
i thought what that guy said about fengshui, fortune, luck, invisible power all that were damn crap.
and i watched on as he refused the angpao, which was pretty funny (otherwise, pretense, bloody false front).
the food was okay, but it was nothing compared to the one that sissie and i went.
service was okay, but they didn't provide small silver forks.
but the most absurd thing, i credit the 750ml plastic bottle of evian mineral water that was placed on the table.
godpa thought it was free, mum poured abit of it into a glass and drank it.
when the bill was to be paid, the waitress said it was chargeable. five bloody bucks. (that alone already irked godpa)
the additional receipt showed $8.25.
eight bucks plus for that bottle of supposedly spring water?
ludicrous, dave told me that pres nathan drinks it everyday. gosh.
so service charge + gst amounted to $3.25??!?!?!
wowwww.
it turned out that they got the price wrong. godpa wanted to see the manager.
and i was just sitting there and thinking, god, this is just a small matter, could you relax and not make another himalayas out of a molehill??
in the end, this kind and (i thought very) weiqu waitress who had a malaysian accent came and said the manager was having a meeting and she apologized and explained that it was wrong of them to put the bottle on the table cause people would think it was free of charge.
abit the wuliao this whole incident but i still can't believe that bloody 750ml costs 5 bucks.
and i always thought evian was a housebrand.

dad fetched me to a briefing which lasted for fifteen minutes.
damn damn sian cause i'll be working alone. :(
i'd rather work at 7-11. :(

beautiful.

dad and mimmy.

serviette.

don't know how this effect came about.

i like this pic the most.
but the tarts on top were midly kns.

fake lotus made of rock and sugar that tasted horrible.

i loved the oreo, but too bad it wasn't cold.

hungry eh?

apple pie i didn't touch.

icecream toppings.

looks nice, but it's actually tongues. =X

bottom left: i sliced that portion off. hah!

mad!

my beautiful creation:
cheese with chocosyrup and sprinkled chipped nuts.

strawberry in crazy mix.

i thought this looked beautiful.

romantic ambience.

modern.

nice.

eye-catching display at the souveneir shop.

2008-02-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

if i were to say that i am neither anxious nor disappointed, who am i kidding?
it is simply unfair that i alone have to bear this month-long mental torture (60x60x24x30=2592000 seconds) just for that three hundred seconds (0.01%) of sheer joy (and it was solely for you).
i have been thinking, i have been thinking for more than a week, why was i so foolish to be taken in? why was i so naive to believe every word you said? the only solution after racking my brain for what seemed like eternity was that nothing mattered to me at that point in time. ignorance; indifference; impassiveness; nonchalance. and that is perhaps one of my greatest weakness. whenever i'm faced with an obstacle, be it a hundred-feet high barricade, or merely a minuscule micro-organism that comes in my way, if i were to give in to my emotions, it'll be d-day for the rest of can'tthinkofhowlong. i knew your words were free, i was fully aware of what you were doing, i smirked at your reply, i smirked at your actions, i smirked at my reactions. i did your bidding, you got angry because i didn't. you got angry because you saw a shimmer at the corner of my eye. you got angry because i didn't allow you to do this and that. and at that point in time, i wanted you to be happy, to be satisfied. i didn't want to be left alone, i didn't want to be abandoned. i wanted back that feeling i'd lost, yes now i've got what i wanted, the process it was saccharine sweet, it was unthinkable, it was unimaginable, but the consequences...

i've lost all the confidence i once had. my opinion of you (this group of impetuous, reckless dickheads) has plunged right down, though it hasn't reached the earth's core. it only requires one dickhead to completely seal the bastardized sex in the outside world from me. hallelujah i've met three.

enough of self-reflection.
some happy stuff for today.
7-11 peeps are really nice:)
i've just found jingjie and dave fun people to work with, though jj looks quiet and blah but he's not and he keeps bullying me hah!
oh yes and dave and i shared this captain kim's spicy seaweed crackers today which was omfg damn nice!
and whenever some random guy buys a pack of condoms, dave seems to be some mind-reader cause he'll be like..."yes? what are you thinking?" after the guy leaves and i'll burst out laughing cause some guys they just look so damn decent!
yes yes yes and i will always remember never ever to say something like "wa, so little customers today". cause the moment i said that, five minutes later, people came streaming in and the queue started to snake and i saw impatient faces and dave was closing the other counter! damn!
and it's really nice to occasionally see people smiling back at you and saying "happy new year!"
oh and today the bread was almost completely wiped off from the shelves, and shin min and wan bao were sold out within a few hours of delivery! gosh!
brought back many packs of today-expired food for family!

it's a wonder how one single text message can do wonders.
there were few customers and disturbing thoughts started to settle.
things got a little better, before i saw that very message i think i smiled to myself like an ass.
i don't care if it's forwarded, or just for fun, or i was one of the many recipients i don't care i don't care! but the very thought that at the very least i actually crossed your mind already makes me happyhappyhappy:)
all smiles on the way home! :D
just a random thought, don't you think a person's replies in sms shows how much you mean to him/her???
like for example, compare:
"nights! sweet dreams! dream of me hor! XD" and...
"gdnight" (no exclamation mark, punctuation, smiley face or whatsoever)
haha okay this is just random.

some silly thing i did when i got home.
i rarely have the habit of rubbing my contacts cause more often than not laziness gets the better of me.
today when i got home i don't know why i decided for a change to rub them.
*rub rub rub*
...
*SPLITS!*
and there goes my one-week old monthly disposable contacts.
damn!

i'm dead beat and my bed misses me.
tata=)

2008-02-10T01:49:00.000+08:00

in two days, three people have asked me who is ct.
even ct has asked me who is ct!
dang.
oh thanks scandal for CT-ing on msn with me!
damn funny la LOL.
1 2 3 CT CT CT CT CT!!!
work work work!!!

2008-02-10T00:58:00.000+08:00

heard olivia newton john's version on class 95 but imeem only has a 30 second preview of it.
anyway this is by agnes chan and it's not bad.
i like this song! :)

Wherever you go
Wherever you may wander in your life
Surely you know
I always wanna be there
Holding your hand
And standing by to catch you when you fall
Seeing you through
In everything you do

Let me be there in your morning
Let me be there in your night
Let me change whatever's wrong and make it right
Let me take you through that wonderland
That only two can share
All I ask you is let me be there

Watching you grow
And going through the changes in your life
That's how I know
I always wanna be there
Whenever you feel you need a friend to lean on, here I am
Whenever you call, you know I'll be there

Let me be there in your morning
Let me be there in your night
Let me change whatever's wrong and make it right
Let me take you through that wonderland
That only two can share
All I ask you is let me be there

2008-02-08T02:28:00.000+08:00

CNY DAY TWO!

had lunch at grandma's before proceeding to kim po's house.
gugu always always, ALWAYS have to stuff us with food as if we haven't eaten for days!
bleahhh.
and it's such a bore to watch cny mtvs on teevee cause 1, they're all oldies, 2, they're singing in dialect, and 3, it's always the same songs!
dang.
had a most horribly tasting LARGE piece of bakua which will now make me think twice, thrice, before i succumb to the damned temptation!
i wished templeton would scurry by and practice his favorite pastime!
'please steal my bakua!!!'
got 'chased' to gugong's room to watch teevee while the big guys tossed their monies out of the window.
smoke, beer, mahjong, poker cards, money.
and us kids left alone they thought teevee could entertain us for six straight hours.
dang!

yes definitely pictures (mostly of me) cause that's what happens when mister boredom sets in!

family. (the orange sisters!)

mimmy and dad.

yes do you have any problem with freckles?

please note sissie's expression.

sissie was studying her notes.

hah!

??

???

i just love jy's expressionless face.

we can do the cat face!!

mimmy caught in the act!!!

like mother, like daughter!

chio sia!

ad no.1 : roasted cashew nuts!
crispy and tasty! grab them while stocks last!

ad no.2 : M&Ms !!!

ad no.3 : dove amicelli, yours sincerely.
take a puff!

ad no.4 : tong garden's pistachios, anyone??

ad no.5: PREMIER tissues.
you can use them to wipe oil off your face!......

.......and clear mucus from your nostrils!!!

ad no.6: sissie's lecture notes?!?!

ad no.7: wang wang hou shao hai tai??!?!
(featuring a golden retriever as the model)

seductive.

:)

it's piggyback time!

she's my !@#$%^&* sista.

little cheyanne!

trying to comprehend proteins, lipids, enzymes and what-have-yous!

hello miss dustbin!

oh isn't she such a cutie!

gosh they're heavy okay!

croc xylo!

woots!

2008-02-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS DAMN SIAN!!!!
cause sissie and i slept late and we had to woke up early!
dark eye rings for cny day 1!!!!! =X
and the big guys they were mahjong-ing all the way and sissie, jy and me were stoning and watching boring teevee and squeezing in a teeny weeny one seater and it was so hot and stuffy!
bleahhh. =X
but at least we played heart attack with cousin and it was fun!!!
but the really fun, really exciting part of today was.........

TAKING PICTURES!!!

vulgarities + some obscene pics + lots of KISSING !!!!!!

MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!!!!!

DEAREST SISSIE BABYYY I LOVE YOU TO CRUMBS AND NINNIES AND BITS!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY LOVE.

SCREWED!

MUACKS DEARIE!

TONGUES!

THE PIG AND THE AHLIAN!

NOT ME ITS YOU!

WAAAAA!

HEH!

WTF!

'EVER-SO-BENVOLENT' JY!!!!

CAN I KISS YOU???

SISSIE LOOKS...OMG!!!!!

HEART ATTACK WITH COUZZIE!

ME AND JY THE RETART!!!

STILL THE SAME POSE!

SISSIE IS HAPPY CAUSE I WANT TO KISS HER.

AHHHH???!! OMG!! LUCKY SHIT!

SISSIE FEELS LOVEDDD!

YOU'RE MINE!!!

SISTERS FOREVER!!!!!!

*(&^!#)($ THAT IS SO FCKIN ACBC AND FCKIN NOT ME!

WE WERE FORCING JY TO ACT CUTE!

CAMWHORING EVEN AT THE BUS STOP!

PASSER-BY HAH!

HEEEE!!!

RABBIT AT DA BO'S HOUSE!

RAMEL! (RABBIT CUM CAMEL!)

MEOW.

CUTE LIL THING!

ITS SCARED.

WTH! DIRECT TRANSLATION?!

COUZZIE'S LIL XMAS TOY!

W.O.W.

UBER CUTE POTATOOOO!!!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY RATTY NEW YEAR!
MEOW!!!!!

2008-02-07T02:24:00.000+08:00

happy new year to everyone!

its 2.24am now!...why the hell am i still using the com?!
haha!
anyway, i've decided to MAKE something for ct's birthday!!!!
i've not thought about doing it before!
hope the prezzie turns out nice!
anyone wants to go shopping at spotlight with me???
heeeee i can't wait!!!!
gotta work doubly, triply, quadruply hard for $$$ to buy those stuff!!!

2008-02-06T13:11:00.000+08:00

haha i'm lazy to recapitulate.
anyway yesterday was quite jialat.
and according to jack, we broke the record:
leaving at 1130!
11 then start closing other counter which is like wth!
there's this irritating lady who keep complaining and cannot see that a queue is forming and she had to ramble on and on and on when she was partly at fault for not keeping the receipt!
jj had to call jack to come! O.O
plus this lady who asked me about the functions of the phones, and i'm like.... errrrr i'm not sure! and she went... you arhhh....
heeeeee i must ask yani about the functions!

but anyway the highlight of yesterday was jingjie squashing a...
SUPER BIG AND FAT HOUSEFLY!!!!
the yucky pest was licking itself (or sth like that) on the sbg cover at the counter and it stayed there for dunno how long i was thinking how the hell to kill it cause you know houseflies have a few million eyeballs and definitely they'll fly off when you come closer!
but jj just used the bg cover and niftily capped the sbg cover!
AND SQUASHED IT!!!!! (literally!)
and i was like...OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD!!!
the fly is like damn stupid to have stayed there!!!!

2008-02-04T11:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY!!!
XDD

but not that much towards the end :X

but i'm glad enough! :))

2008-02-04T10:57:00.000+08:00

saw this in some random blog and found it ......

Guys, realize that.. the ger you are holding onto.. is perfect in their own special way... The way she laughs.. the way she sleeps.. the way she loves you.. the way she tries to please you. always remember that. she can always walk away and up, getting someone else who can love her more. for all you know, there is someone out there wooing her already, but she is rejecting, a maybe perfect love for you... There might be someone out there.. who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now, fufil her every need and love her as much as she loves you... She loves you not because you are good looking, have money, buy her things, make her parents happy. Its because.. She loves you... for u r U urself... She loves the way you laugh, the way you sleep, the way you hug and hold her, make every little bad thing go away. thats why she loves you. Always remember that. there might be another guy who wants to have what you have. so dun let relationships run wrong. you might never have another chance with that ger. dun regret when you lost a gem.

2008-02-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes before i forget!
yani was doing closing and there were no customers and i was bored!
so i started looking at the cigarette packs...
and i started sniffing sniffing smelling smelling...
hmmm malboro ice sth sth smells nice!
then the malboro soft packs... cause hard pack cannot smell anything one!
normal, menthol, lights!
i messed up the three packs, picked up one of them, and lo and behold!
i guessed correctly! haha!
okay i know what i did was super lame!
yani gave me that -_- look!!!!
oh then butterfly then tobacco!
eeeeeeyer butterfly doesn't smell nice!
but tobacco got nice nice smell! (though it doesn't smell like strawberry! =X)
worked my nose hard for like five long minutes before i suddenly felt dizzy....!!!!!!
and yani was like... 'see la! see la! who tell you! go eat la next time!'
HAHAHA! yani's so funny! i wanna work with her every sunday!
oh then susie came! finally time to knock off!
and yani started imitating ***** again!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA work is so fun(without *****)!!!!!
TO BEANSTALK: OI! WHEN CAN WORK AGAIN!!! YOUR STUPID EXAMS!!!!

2008-02-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

yay i'm back!
happy happy happy! X)
today's work from 9-3 was not bad!
kasmah and yani are damn fun partners to have!
but i still prefer... 'ehem ehem' HAHAHA.
and i was like wth they kept making fun of me and .... !!!
LOL and yani's imitation of ***** was freaking funny!!!
seriously yani doesn't look her age!
i think she's pretty and she looks only twenty plus!
and i still don't believe kasmah is malay! XD
went out after work to shop around.
went hg mall and spent all my money!!
the chocolate mochi that i bought back turned out =X
HAHA anyway its the money i earned so WAHAHA i dun care i can spend it on whatever i like!
ladybird ladybird so cute!!!
still brimming with JOYJOYJOY from yesterday!!! XDDDDD
looking for a third job cause boss says work resumes only after cny!!

some random pictures for today! :)

'yik orh' on bear?!?!?!?!

MY UBER UBER CUTE PENCIL BOX!

SO CUTE SO CUTE!!!

JBOI HERE'S THE PICTURE YOU WANT!

'yik orh' muffler!

omg look at jboi's super duper retarted face!

2008-02-03T08:31:00.000+08:00

no more emokid!!!! :)

do you know how i'm feeling now?
no?
okay i tell you...

I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

30%: ks practice
10%: decision to let go
60%: CT!!! XDDDD

:)

2008-01-27T23:24:00.000+08:00

now i finally understand why ct feels irritated.
will not disturb you that much from now on. :(

...

if i hadn't calm down to sort things out, this post would only be of:
' cb knn kns nbnbnbnbnbnb '
on a lighter note, i love my second job. the pay, to be exact.

2008-01-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

i like my job, but her existence is troubling me!
i hate crying!
crying sucks!

this problem, there are two solutions.

1. behave like a spoilt brat, give up on the slightest failure, quit my job, jump down the building.

2. take it in my stride, accept what she says, learn from past mistakes and remember to not make the same mistakes again!

yay option 2 i choose you!

2008-01-25T09:53:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS AWESOME!!!!
it was like having fun and getting paid!
well largely because of my funny partner jack!
it was so much much more enjoyable working with him than *****!
probably because of our much much smaller age gap!
jack's laughter keeps reminding me of someone but i can't think of who!
ten thirty onwards: busy busy busy!
and jack had to go out with eugenie to help paste some stuff.
so it's me all alone at the counter!
and a queue started to form!
thank god susie helped me!! :)))
oh and counting counting counting was tiring but fun!
i love customer service!!!
just two days into my job and...
I'M LOVING IT!!!
=DDD

2008-01-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

i officially start work today!
today was okay apart from some minor hiccups.
my partner who was supposed to train me was pretty strict.
hope i don't see her tomorrow! :X
oh i have two nice managers!
eugenie and susie!
then this guy called dave came at 7,
and he bore this uncanny resemblance with shaoxuan!
stood all the way from 2.45 to 7. aching legs as a result!

ALL SMILES on the way home! =DDD
not telling you why! =)))))

oh, not telling you what's my job cause the next thing i'll be hearing is laughter plus bombardment of tonnes of questions.
ignorant greenhorns!
working from seven to eleven tomorrow!

2008-01-24T12:42:00.000+08:00

my very very very very cute eeyore!!!

*squeezes its neck!*

finally, after 3 long shots, pok managed to capture a proper one!
that damn thing's not light you know!

???

spoiled statue of liberty :X

PLEASE ASK ME FOR YUHUA SEC'S PERCUSSION ENSEMBLE MARCHING SEASON!
ITS SO BLOODY NICE I WILL GLADLY SEND IT TO YOU!!!!

2008-01-24T11:30:00.000+08:00

I WAS LATE AGAIN!!!
i was supposed to reach ks yesterday at 2.15 but i reached 15 minutes later!
and fifteen bloody minutes are very precious considering that i could have mastered a drum beat!
oh and the lame thing is i got into the room only at 2.45 cause...
...i couldn't open the door!
the key just couldn't turn when i inserted it into the keyhole!
so frustrating!
rahman messaged me then if i was going to ks.
and i said i've reached but i can't open the door!
and he laughed. HAHAHAHA~~~
LOL but finally i managed to open the main door i realised you gotta turn the key 3 full rounds. or more than that. haha.

I NEED MY BIBLE!
PLEASE FIFI IF YOU ARE READING THIS I'M GONNA DIE WITHOUT MY BIBLE!
WHEN CAN YOU RETURN IT TO ME!
I NEED TO STUDYYYY~~~~~~!

initially planned to do warm-ups but they bored me after 30 seconds or so.
so i started practicing on the drumset.
the book i have, it's good! so many drumming styles and unique beats!
what's more, it's from the internet!
so many webbies, foc somemore.
here's a list of some of them.

great styles from this web:
http://www.drummingstyles.com

great content.
http://www.breaksticks.com
http://www.drummeressentials.com

PLEASE CLICK THIS LINK!
49 PAGES in ready-to-print pdf format!!!!
http://www.drummeressentials.com/download/drummer_essentials_v6.pdf

cool video drum lessons.
http://www.freedrumlessons.com/

pretty good percussion ensemble piece, i personally find 'fire' not bad.
http://www.ktpercussion.com/natworld.html

article: tips for overcoming pre-show jitters
http://www.drummeressentials.com/lessons/08-ub.html

article: how to develop hand speed, power, and control
http://www.drummeressentials.com/lessons/07-jw.html

article: 10 important things bands look for in a drummer
http://www.drummeressentials.com/lessons/06-gf.html

article: drumset buying tips
http://www.drummeressentials.com/lessons/05-tg.html

article: improving bass drum speed and control
http://www.drummeressentials.com/lessons/04-rt.html

article: add spice and creativity to your drum beats
http://www.drummeressentials.com/lessons/03-po.html

article: improve your groove by playing with dynamics
http://www.drummeressentials.com/lessons/02-mu.html

article: practice tips to save valuable time
http://www.drummeressentials.com/lessons/01.html

score: looks cool! and i've yet to try it.
http://www.ktpercussion.com/minute/parafunk.pdf

article: percussion warmup
http://www.ktpercussion.com/minute/zacwarmup.pdf

to jboi: hope this relieves boredom at home! :)

oh oh back to where i was.
after ks had dinner with them and the claypot noodles burnt my tongue :X
its still feeling numb now!
oh thanks jb for helping me to pay first! (:
wanted to go np around 9 to learn from bada in the end didn't :X
sectionals were so fun i didn't want to leave. haha.
pok and i played little red indians which was so fun!!!!
and there was the statue of liberty thing! haha!
they were trying some new pieces and rahman and i were playing the bd and sd and the march piece was so boring and we were counting like mad so we added in our own parts and dynamics which was like damn hilarious!
tired tired tired.
bathe and sleep!
yay! im starting work today!
so excited! :)))

2008-01-23T12:49:00.000+08:00

off to ks!!
:D

2008-01-22T14:44:00.000+08:00

I MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT PUNCTUALITY!!!

i told joshua i would come at six -
i was late for 45 mins

i told --- i'd be there at eleven -
i was late for 30 mins

i was gonna go kimseng at 1pm -
i was late for 75 mins

i told shirmain i'll come for sectionals at 10 -
i was late for 60 mins

section gathering at newton -
i was late for 15 mins

jcbf day 1 -
i was late for 30 mins

section outing at escape -
i was late for 120 mins

returning sr instruments -
i was late for 60 mins

meeting gs at tb station -
i was late for 30 mins

meeting kak at harbourfront -
i was late for 15 mins

meeting alvin at funan -
i was late for 15 mins

lift from kenneth to daryl's house -
i was late for 'can't remember'...

I MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT PUNCTUALITY!!!

2008-01-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

reached np at 6.45, thought i was gonna be late but turned out there were very few people and joshua was still setting up chairs.

only one horn, little charissa!
then there was some boob poking!

the pieces i thought were not bad, concerto! hawaiian something, my heart will go on, shrek dance party. yeah concerto my favourite and at the same time, used to be my worst nightmare! i feel like i'm enjoying more on mallets than i ever used to, after learning from rahman! playing on the glock made me miss playing 'i only care about you' with rahman at ks! i'd try to imitate his expression then both of us would lift up together. oh then mr tbw would smile at us! :))

hahaha taught azri abit on the conga i wasn't sure about the slap though. so i asked badabada NORAIN! oh she's good at slaps! but ouch it gives my right hand bruises!

badabada they're pro at drums but they can't seem to play softer!
as quoted from daryl,
"not that they don't wanna play softer, is they cannot!"
hahaha true true!

yes and i learnt tomwork from badabada i was trying to subdivide to fit into 1ena2ena3ena4ena but i realised after that it was all rudimentary! 556, as you'd call it.
RLRLL RLRLL RLLRLL!

RLRL LRLR LLRL RLLC C

YAY!!!! (with bd on every tom and cym!)

oh and i learnt the smilutaneous open hihat and bd part! so fun! and the drumline thingi! oh but my switching from matched to traditional isn't smooth. and i'll play with the wrong traditional grip! gotta practice on that! oh and the rimshots gotta get them right every single time! so fun! i wanna learn more from badabada!
okay some pictures just for fun!

i like this! inspirational!

jboi and eeyore!

hahahaha! "wink wink little star"!

pirates of the bean?!?!!

daryl the gossiper!

HELLO SHAOXUAN!

a very cute teddy!

aloysius stole my jacket!

very cute panda! (cuter than teddy)

so cute!

2008-01-21T13:59:00.001+08:00

special thanks to sissie for the photoshoot!
and my jie fu derrick KOH!
HAHAHAHAHAHA

2008-01-21T13:31:00.001+08:00

constipated! fifi took this!

spoiler!

yes i am always the spoiler of a beautiful picture!

wonderful section :)

SCREAMMM!!!!

EVERYBODY...JUMP!!!

trying to touch the ceiling!

haha look at conrad!

look at shirmain's face!!! haha shrouded with jealousy!

yay! percussionists!

for once, richard looks cute! HAHAHA

erm why was i holding a cloth?

...

i shouldn't think so much.
oh i realise that i cheer up very easily.
turn emo easily also.
okay im back to happy mode again! :)
looking at all the pictures brought back happy happy memories at np!
thanks lf (=

2008-01-21T12:06:00.000+08:00

giving up...giving up...
every click of the mouse sinks my heart a thousand feet.
plain looking at 'em tears welling in my eyes.
i know it's not even a month, i know it's ludicrous.
i hear those words over the phone and i start to bleed.
holy crap, im here tormenting myself and dang doesn't feel a thing.

i was looking forward to today.
i told myself to be happier than yesterday.
it was going to be successful.
then i came across that page.
and everything fell apart.
i need to bring myself back.
i must smile.
i must be happy.

2008-01-20T17:19:00.000+08:00

i am feeling 1000x deader.
i want to get out of this shit.
you din have to mention him.

2008-01-19T12:57:00.000+08:00

there can only be two possible outcomes of a ks practice.
the extreme ends of the 'mood' scale.

i am a robot, a used, filthy robot, non-existent in your eyes, manipulated by your every action, living in delusion, living in make-believe euphoria.
i try to not think of my master, i try to keep the irksome black gadget away, i try to press the 'brainwash' button 8622 times in a millisecond.
but my master he needs nothing more than a glib tongue to lure a gullible me, merely a jumble of useless scrap metal.
then one-two-three he skips down the alley he picks up one-two-three, my companions i realise, but don't we look the same?
i have no brains, literally, but i am smart enough to understand that i am after all, just a robot, devoid of beauty, devoid of independence, devoid of charisma.

2008-01-19T12:55:00.000+08:00

i was told you found me 'unconventional' (a better description)
thank you very much, but i guess that eccentricity is very much innate
and i will try (if i remember) to correct it.
anyhow, this bothers me as much as how a strand of black hair on my head would.

2008-01-19T12:30:00.000+08:00

after today, all i have to say is still what i'd said:
'treat your friends the way you want them to treat you'.
you blame people for being so insensitive and for trampling on your pride.
you don't realise that you do the same.
how do you fancy a greeting?
a friendly smile or a buay song "WHAT?"
seems like you chose the latter because that's what you're doing.
just a teeeeeny weeeeny little favour to ask of you and you reject it downright.
and you won't even budge with repeated pleading.
so that's what friends are for?
so in the future, if you have no choice but to request a favour from your friend, be it the tiniest favour, expect the same nonchalant reply.
how are you going to survive in society with this pig-headish, obstinate character of yours?
why do you value pride above everything else?
maybe if you actually (bother to) read this, history would repeat itself and all ties would be severed.
maybe you would value pride over friendship, over kinship.
self-centredness is destructing you.
you keep shifting the blame to others because you don't understand why they are reacting this way.
maybe it's okay if you don't understand.
but it's not when you don't try to change for the better and you expect people to treat you nicely, compliment you blahblahblah.
on a side note, perhaps you do not know, perhaps you are turning a blind eye, but there is definitely more than meets the eye. he is not who he appears to be.
please, i beg of you, whenever you speak or make any move, put yourself in others' shoes to think how they would react.
i care for you because i value you as my friend, but please DO NOT TAKE ME FOR GRANTED.
i am only human.
i have feelings.
i can be hurt. easily.

2008-01-19T12:18:00.000+08:00

i look myself in the mirror and i see a disfigured big-small eyed, toothy-faced teen with oil-soaked skin and scarred, unsightly cheeks.
i smile and bits of last night's broccoli are revealed.
i realise the smile is fake.
i try to take off the mask i'm wearing.
it is difficult, but i still try.
finally it is off.
but i realise i am still wearing a mask.
and another.
and another.
and another.
and another.
i take these off, painstakingly.
yet ultimately, i find myself still wearing one.
and i am still the disfigured, big-small eyed toothy-faced teen with oil-soaked skin and scarred, unsightly cheeks with bits of last night's broccoli stuck between my teeth.
it's no wonder.
any takers?
a fugly bitch will pay to have you instead.

2008-01-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

woke up at eight fifteen!
damn tired. holiday leh, wake up so early!

met --- for lunch.
CHARISSA THE NAUGHTY GIRL!
KEEP POKING MY BOOBS!
chased the chilli padi round atrium and managed to use drumstick to ... !
HAHAHAHA.

brass quintet around one.
featuring gregory! brian, shaoxuan! daryl and andrew.
jboi and his friend weilian were giving out flyers :X

omfg saw - at amk wth!!!
jboi said i was bad, ya i know i was but i dun care!
alighted at orchard with them.
loooooooong, tiring walk to ps.
in the end jboi didn't buy sticks :X
weiyi, weilian, jboi and me went kopitiam at ps for dinner.
oh and the feeling of not being replied in sms really sucks.
SIGHHHHH. especially if its that someone.
damn sian. nobody jio me out.
went home.
don't exactly feel like blogging cause i failed myself today again.
upon ten, i'll give myself a four.
and that's being very lenient with myself already.
i cannnnnnot revert back to my old self!
ohhh, and i was pretty shocked to hear what jboi told me about what you said to him about me.
thought you were gonna ignore me forever forever forever~~~

year3s brass quintet!

me and sebast! jboi and errr...john behind? (note sebastian's retarted face)

yes, jboi is stripping in the bus! wth!

unappreciative of my efforts seriously!

errr...???

pretty sticks, jboi!

spiral cymbal which looks damn cool.

2008-01-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

paopaocha from jboi! geesh so colourful the straws!

new percussionist! guest player...BOING BOING!

beheaded lizard outside :X

practices at kimseng are real fun!
especially with jboi around!
he's like the absolute joker and kaixinguo in perc!
there's shiying the sl, rahman and aliff.
nice nice people:)

oh anyway i failed myself today.
i shouldn't have strangled peiyi :X
bleah. long story.
hmmm but some things they're still pretty awkward.
i also wish we could be like last time.

2008-01-15T12:16:00.000+08:00

i don't exactly understand how guys can be more petty than girls.
bleah.
anyway, i can't be heavier than my boyfriend!
okay that's random.

2008-01-14T21:59:00.001+08:00

i would give today an eight out of ten!
yes today was not bad but i still gotta learn to think fast before i act.
yes yes :)

there's no more time to slack!
i gotta start working hard from now!
as of today, i've yet to tidy my room and polish my piano.

I HAVE TO GET THESE DONE ASAP!

my wardrobe's in a mess, my barang barang cupboard's probably infested with spiders, my study table has a 5mm thick layer of dust, my fan's circulating dust and not air, and there are some things i think i ought not to keep any longer.

after i'm done with the revamp, then'll come the more challenging stuff!

first of all, i really gotta start practicing hard on my practice pad.
dun practice, buy for what?
next, i gotta master my major, minor, melodic and harmonic scales.
next, i gotta recapitulate all that i've learnt and returned to ms ong.
(which is gonna take super long)

DANG.

schedule for non-practice/outing days:

rise and shine @ 10.
breakfast, wash up, clean up till eleven.
0.5 hour on pp. (warm-ups, basics)
1.5 hours for sweeping and folding clothes.
lunch, wash up, break, com for two hours.
practical by 3 for 1.5 hours. (5 min break)
theory for another 1.5 hours. (5 min break)
dinner, wash up, break, com for two hours.
practical till 9.
0.5 hour on pp. (joel rothman's teaching rhythm)
bathe at nine thirty. strictly limited to half hour usage of bathroom.
1.5 hours reading and understanding 'complete percussionist'.
sleep!

ground rules during practice times:
*strictly no usage of computer
*phone must be switched to silent mode
*keep your cool and don't get stressed or upset when you can't get a particular part right.
*no procrastination!

you reap what you sow.
no more slacking!!!!!

2008-01-14T15:41:00.000+08:00

freaking petty!!! ohmygod.

...

a word of advice to you my dear friend;
treat your friends the way you want them to treat you,
or this family will fall apart.

2008-01-14T14:02:00.000+08:00

i was about to plan my schedule for the day when i saw a disturbing photo.
well its not as if i haven't seen pics like this before.
:(

2008-01-14T10:51:00.000+08:00

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!
TELL ME WHY!

why is he close to everyone.........
:(

2008-01-14T10:46:00.001+08:00

my lanyards!!!

cute lil turtle from peiyi,
i bought cause its cute,
i bought cause it's orange,
singapore arts festival,
TOTORO!,
ijtp,
imation,
mio from pk and finally
SPONGEBOB!

2008-01-13T19:55:00.001+08:00

jcbf! i miss!

jap graff XII drove me insane.

my eye!

devouring spongebob. yumyum!

retarted. :X

THANKS JIAHAO! :)

2008-01-13T18:50:00.000+08:00

feeling increasingly detached from family, friends, from this world.
i keep giving myself reasons to be emo or pissed, but ultimately i realise that the 1090 rule still applies.
why do i keep desiring positive outcomes but my actions are showing otherwise?
why do i keep choosing to face problems with a pessimistic mindset?
i am faced with two choices; the good and the bad.
why am i still doing the devil's bidding?
i can't possibly attend two hours of morning grouping and another two hours of ndt everyday.
where am i?
where has the real me gone to?
i failed the interview, and there were plenty of reasons for her to fail me.
if it was a month ago, i wouldn't be answering her questions the way i did.
i wouldn't be forcing so many smiles, i wouldn't be hesitating, i wouldn't be lying about my employment history.
i wouldn't be feeling down after the interview, i wouldn't be calling...........
bring me back!!!!!
i hate being the way i am now.
getting fucking pissed over trivial matters, behaving like a bimbo, whining about everything...
yes and here i am now whining again.
please bring the old me back!
im so gonna rot and die if i don't revert to my old self!

okay. problem solving time now.

1. yes i know she cares about me. she has my welfare at heart, she's worried about me. but just that her way of showing concern for me is sometimes inappropriate, like lecturing over the phone, yelling yadayada. yes i know you're tired, but all that worrying is more exhausting for her did you know?! besides, she's getting on her years and her health isn't all that great. filial piety haven't you heard?

solution: speak nicely to her, even when you've had a long day and you're freaking exhausted. calm down when you were pissed. she didn't offend you, she isn't involved, why're you venting your anger on her?

2. you guys were okay, and improving. now because of this silly little matter everything's back to square one. you don't want that do you? you don't want to feel awkward and restricted at home do you? similarly, he has your interests at heart. whose parents aren't concerned about their own flesh and blood? and you cannot deny that what he said is wrong. low crime doesn't mean no crime. yes singapore is a safe country but you know, late at night, anything can happen. and besides you're a girl! the curfew isn't there for nothing! he's just worried about you because he knows that you have yet to mature and you have yet seen the society. chill girl, and grow up. things aren't getting any better because you are always the one who's so obstinate.

solution: take things a step at a time, and see how they progress. take initiative. it's never too late to change. don't blurt sarcastic, hurtful words on impulse. don't act rashly. think before you make every move and enunciate every word! (this takes time!)

3. some people, they're just born this way. and they can't possibly change if you find their traits disturbing, irksome, blah. you can choose to keep, or to abandon. the ultimate decision lies in you. remember, 1090 rule!

solution: don't take things to heart. if you feel uncomfortable, just HECK CARE. it's their own business anyway, why do you have to make your own life so difficult by complicating things and getting involved in other's business?

4. you can't do much but let nature take its course. you can't force someone to.......

i feel much better now after saying what i'd always wanted to say.
ming tian hui geng hao! :)

2008-01-13T16:28:00.000+08:00

emb presentatation ceremony today.
probably the last time i'll be wearing the sr uniform! :(
and the school's undergoing a makeover...
white looks more spacious and ya i know the new uni looks better, but sadly the sr tradition would be lost!
christmas tree tie and muddy uniform, thats what we've always been known for right?
at least now the school has a respected leader who's open to changes for the better.

me and mum.

me and chua! yes i know i look super aunty...

jy received the scholarship thingi. damn pro.

HAHA.

jy only has fringe. :X

2008-01-13T09:56:00.000+08:00

i just don't understand it.
why do some people(not referring to any) have to spout vulgarities and add them in every sentence they speak?
adverb, adjective, verb blahblahblah.
i mean, if it's used at the appropriate time, like when you're so very fucking pissed and you say WTF thats understandable.
but what about those dialect terms?
why must people use them in 80% of their speech?
it just reflects how uncouth and how uncivilised they are.
someday they'll realise that people will begin to shun them like the flu.

2008-01-13T09:03:00.000+08:00

really i couldn't help but feel this way during practice.
i mean, dang, she has the looks and the figure which decent guy wouldn't want to take a second look at her?

must i dress more provocatively to gain that extra little bit of your attention?
what about playing the xylo in a two-piece?